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Sometimes adding new things to your life means you have to let go of the old. I have struggled with some health issues in the last several months and have found that as much as I wanted to continue on with my “plan”, that plan just does not suit my life as it is — and that does not mean that I have failed, it just means that I can move in different directions.
No More Deadlines
As a freelance web content writer, I became used to working with deadlines. As a new “epileptic” with concentration issues, making those deadlines has become impossible. Oh, I can do the work! I just cannot promise you it will be done in the time-frame you like (at least not when there are multiple articles to be done within a few days). That truth is not conducive to bidding on freelance projects. I let down my last two clients, and I am not thrilled about it, but I truly had no control over it. I should not have bid on the projects in the first place. For that, I am truly sorry. To avoid the disappointment from myself and my clients, I am no longer bidding on projects that include long pieces of researched content to be done very quickly. One post a day? Easy. More than that? I cannot promise anything. That didn’t stop me from doing so… all I can say is that I did not deceive purposefully. It happened because I deceived myself, first.
I had one class to go… I was studying for my degree in web development and had one class to go when I started having serious concentration issues, seizures, and debilitating headaches. I had to take leave, and then when my leave was up, I was forced to drop out as I no longer have the money to cover that ONE class. Medical and prescription bills will do that to you. So here I sit, ONE class away from my degree… for something my doctor says I should not be doing, anyway.
No Wallowing in Self-Pity
Of course I had my “poor me” moments. Not only have I been sick and tired, my entire plan for achieving healthy finances has gone down the drain. In fact, my illness means I owe more now that I did before, and the degree I had counted on to take care of the bills is not going to be the saving grace.
BUT, I have faith. I believe in God and I believe that God knows what is going on in my life (I’ve told him about it enough…). His love has carried me through much worse than what I am dealing with now. My Lord has a plan for me and all I can do is trust that He will reveal it to me as I go along. For now, I write on revenue sharing sites, hone my blogging skills here on this and other blogs, and sell Avon. For now, I am fine with where I am because the path I am on right now will lead somewhere, even if it is to another fork in the road. I am not standing still, and as far as I am concerned, that is what matters.
I am thinking of writing a book.
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